Tuesday, December 28, 2010

it's easy to love.
you just have to let everything go,
and it all starts working.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

as we grow older
the magic of christmas fades

maybe we all get jaded a bit

but it's also because we learn
that generosity shouldn't be confined
to a single day.

Friday, December 10, 2010

There are Many Names for Home

Photo and Title: Matthew McPheeters

home is the other end
of the ropes we tied
to each other.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

'scuse me, I think you dropped this.

just leave it.

looks pretty important.

like I said, just leave it.

if you're not going to take it, then I will.

fine. I hated it anyway.

*opens it up*

w-what are you doing?

thought you didn't want it...

but those are...my secrets.

secrets aren't meant to be kept.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I don't exist
where We come from.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

you count your regrets
and number your days

below the surface,
below your skin,
where everything you fear
can't reach you

but those numbers
are the hidden cracks
and seams in your walls.

one day they'll topple
and we won't be there
to hold them up.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

and what if everything happened,
the pain and the joy,

just so one moment could happen
that would make it all worth it

except that moment hasn't happened yet,
and you have no clue when it will be,
or if it will happen.

would you still want to take it all back?

Thursday, October 28, 2010

you were with me
when you were sleeping,
dreaming of the place
you are now.

you were with me
when you left
quicker than my heart could keep up with.

when all my whens became ifs
and all my ifs became memories
of all the dreams i once had.
you were still with me.

and I'm sorry I had to see it
to believe it.

Monday, October 25, 2010

you tell me
that i'll forget you
in ten years or so.

but i know.
it would take more than time

to forget your sweet scent
and the skin it comes from

to forget what your face feels like
when its feeling what my face feels like,

to forget the little symbolic things that we keep
to remind each other of the us that happened.

so no,
I won't forget you

but now that you mention it
i'm kinda worried
that you'll be the one
to forget me.

Monday, September 20, 2010

the glass floor swallows you,
while the sun's wide open mouth
licks the water right off your face.

sure, you never asked to be clean
but you always needed it
we just had to show you.

don't worry.
i promise you'll be happy in the end.
cross my heart,
caus now you cannot die.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

You can't catch
dry tears.

Thursday, September 2, 2010

it was the darkest drought in history.

we knew we'd really messed up
when we started seeing clouds across the sky
for days and weeks on end,

but the most curious thing
is that it never rained.

they were like the steel cladding of a diving bell,
fit for this ever-sinking vessel we call earth.

and we were along for the ride.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

there are thousands of people around you
who would say the most beautiful things
with words that could change the world
were anyone listening.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

is a mess

this is an aching bubble
the air inside getting hotter and hotter
but for some reason
the bubble never bursts

this is my heart
though it may not look like it.
what you see on the street
is just a man who talks for a living
but when i come home,
my God how i think.

this is my job
i work for the man who eats his fellow man
from the tables of death.
he justifies his cannibalism telling us,
"it's just how the game is played"

when he's the one making the rules,
we can't hope for anything but the day we are set free.

and when this is finished
you and i will come home,
we'll say grace,
we'll say goodnight.
and all anyone will know of us
is that we did our best
to survive.

but you and i will know
how we loved.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

you think your voice means nothing
but when your voice joins thousands more
they become one voice.
indivisible, impenetrable.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

you're so nice to all the people who don't deserve it.

and apathetic to all the people who do.

Sunday, July 25, 2010

life isn't a disney movie
or any movie, really

life isn't a story you read
life isn't some idea in your head

life is nothing
until you make it something

you have to live the story
if you want to tell it.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

and i just wanted to tell you
the reason i can't stay

sometimes it takes a villain
to save the day

Thursday, July 15, 2010

we saw what we had become:
victims of our own self-interest,
pacing the earth, searching for priceless gifts,
no longer given.

we babbled on to strangers
in words that only made sense
in the insane tongue with which they were spoken;
the language of people who were more afraid of the truth
than the darkness in which they lived.

by the time the candles reached us
we had forgotten what our eyes were for.
the flame glowed warm against all our faces.
and the light was a home we never had.

a home with each other.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

the sun is setting.
and It's such a familiar feeling.
when the warm goes away
and it's just you and the moon for comfort.

Monday, July 12, 2010

stop telling the world what it needs or doesn't need.

the last thing it needs right now is direction.

Monday, July 5, 2010

all your words
were the notes that i read
on five lines,
a requiem of blue
you made just for me.

they moved my hands,
the knife, my baton.
and the blood marched forth,
my own red army choir
singing a grand coup d'vivre.

the seats remain silent,
invisible in the limelight.
and you, the brilliant composer
of such luscious tragedy.
you are nowhere to be found.

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

pick a time
once every day.

to look up at the sky.

it's the biggest white board you could imagine.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

when i tell you we miss you
every time you visit

it means we stopped being friends
when you left us.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

who do you think you are?
you think life is some kind of game?

why yes. isn't it?
I mean, you've been keeping score this whole time.

Friday, June 11, 2010

there are no secrets,
only silent lies.

Monday, June 7, 2010

when their hearts become ill
and they don't know why,

let them know,
it's okay not to know the answer.

that you'll still be there to fight alongside them
'til their demons have retreated.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

you know that place?

where we can all fly
and make peace from our pieces?

let's go back there sometime...

...i'll call you

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

it's not the philosophy that you've developed
and crafted into your mind
that makes you smart.

it's the philosophy you make
together, with all the world
that truly matters in the end.

Sunday, May 30, 2010

what they didn't realize
is that fighting
is not the same as killing.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

people think i'm successful
because i have a good job

but you're the one who got me here alive
and now you're gone.

i think i've failed.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

if you're thinking of dying,

there are millions of people
just like you
who need someone
just like you.

when death makes no sense,

Monday, May 17, 2010

i told myself,
"what the hell am i doing? this is wrong. so very wrong."
i came back to you and fought.
for the first time in my life.

and for the first time in my life,
i did something right.
and for the first time in your life,
you smiled.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

they say that first impressions
are everything.

but last impressions
are what they bring
to the grave.

Friday, May 7, 2010

the guardians were made
for the weak to lean on.

and the rocks were made,
for the soil to rest.

and all the reach of the sky
was crafted
in blue and white threads
for you to be free

if only you seek it.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

let the world play.

it's earned its break.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

love is when we don't have to say
"i love you"

because we already know.

Monday, April 26, 2010

the horizon spoke in colors
as the sun laid down to rest.
and the moon came out to guide us
with all her splendid guests.

the wind was whispers, cool and calm,
its stories, ours to keep.
the sea, a perfect cradle
for you and i to sleep.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

remember that last goodbye
all those years ago?

when you left a scar
that people still ask me about?

you missed.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

he calculated

how high he needed to put it
so she couldn't reach.

how much time he had
so she wouldn't suspect

the way he should phrase things
to convince her otherwise

but she knew about it
all along.

love is a lens
that sees it all.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

when the doctor gave me two years to live,
i smiled.

puzzled, he asked,
"you aren't afraid of death?"

i told him,
"are you kidding me?
now i get to live!"

and as i held you,
waiting for the sound
of your goodbye,

you undid
my whole life plan
with a simple question:

"if this is life,
and life is short,
then what are we waiting for?"

Monday, April 12, 2010

and then you told me how you felt,
and it wasn't a dream anymore.

if you're trying,
you're trying too hard

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

and as the planes draw lines across the sky
and the dust particles dance across the room,
i'll lie here and think of you
til i can't think no more.

Monday, April 5, 2010

so the question is

if you fell
and there was no one to catch you.

would you still land?

Saturday, April 3, 2010

i think of you

much more than you imagine.

Friday, April 2, 2010

if you've seen it all before

you're doing it wrong.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

if you knew,
you would never have gone.

but you didn't know.

you lived.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

and there we stood
and heard the thunder
of cities turning to dust.

but this place was left.

we had become the world.
guilty, but free.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

"i think i figured out what's been bothering me."

"...oh?" her eyes still glazed from the TV.

"whenever i take up your time,
you kick me out of your life."


"i thought you might want to know,
before i leave."


"did you know already?"



"wait, what should i already know?"


Sunday, March 21, 2010

the hard part isn't missing you.
that's easy

the hard part is knowing
that you left without saying goodbye

and when you took off
you brought enough fuel to last the night

packed food and water,
enough to sustain you 'til you adapted

but you never once thought about home,
about us,
about me.

so i guess the hardest part then,
is knowing that i had my chance the whole time,
and never took it.

Friday, March 12, 2010

next in line

and if you took a closer look
you would see
that we are not dead

we speak
as a testament
to the blood

of your brothers, sisters, cousins,
mothers, fathers, friends, and co-workers,
that fought for your right
to continue the tradition
of suffering.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

you call it a mental disorder.
i call it everything that i'm glad to be.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

you'd better not break my heart

caus if you turn into a monster and eat it,
it'll taste just as bad as it felt
and you'll be sorry.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

it's not so much about how they were that matters in the end
it's about how they left you.

you can do so much better than [ ]
you have [ ] now

[ ] could do much better than me
[ ] has [ ] now

but both of us are still full
of empty.

Monday, February 22, 2010

there's this list i have
of romantic things to say
and witty little quotes to pull from my sleeve.

but it's an awful long lie.

so i threw it away.

i find that it's much easier to speak
when you have a reason.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

a spirit motivated by love:
such is unstoppable.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

the part i hate most about crying
is that it only happens when i'm alone.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

you're here

and all that you've messed up,
everything you've done to hurt yourself,
to hurt me,

it all doesn't really matter anymore.

because you came back.

so i'll be okay
as long as you're still here.

Friday, February 5, 2010

why love yourself?

because a true smile
is worth a thousand fake laughs.

because you owe your ideas
to a world that's waiting.

because, dammit, i love you.

shouldn't that be enough?

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

i wish i could cry
but i don't have a reason

ellipses are the scariest
little packages
of bad news

if you're feeling trapped inside yourself,
let your mind wander off.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

you could love a kid from far away,
and ten a month is all you'd pay.

love her caus she makes you seem
like love is truly what you mean.

and how you'd realize when you're sad
that love is what you never had,

that caring isn't love, alone.

it takes a heart to leave a home.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

if what you see around you is all a lie,
then what is the truth?

you have hands
pulsing with omnipotence,

and a heart
pounding with courage,

to fear the world you live in.
that is when you die.

Friday, January 22, 2010

if you could say every word
exactly how you wanted to say it,
you wouldn't need to write.

whenever i see that building,
smell those flowers,
read your letter,
i live the whole thing all over again.

you are my own private purgatory.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

there was a time
when i never thought we'd be friends again
when the pain overtook the bond in all its mess of sound.

the pain is gone now.

thank you for waiting.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

and then. the silence was broken.

and the words began to bubble and hiss and ooze out from every crack in the ground.
and they crawled up the walls and made faces on the ceilings.

"we are words", they said."we have come to redeem you. to let all of them know you are here."

and i told them, "i know nothing of you. but already, there's this feeling. i need you."

"you will learn and it will hurt until you've realized that they feel just like you. we will be here for them and for you."

"will the pain be for long?"

"it will always be with you. but you will thank us later. they always do."

and so i cursed the words
until i learned
what they really meant.

and i was thankful
despite the pain.

you cannot begin to put it together
if you cannot see the pieces.

Friday, January 15, 2010

you can read all the words you want
but it doesn't change
your fear to live them.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

being you is hard
but i bet you're the only one who could do it

there is an us
so much more powerful
than one could ever dream

Sunday, January 10, 2010

i've never felt so lonely
as i do when i'm with you

Friday, January 8, 2010

you've arrived

Sunday, January 3, 2010

so while you're laying asleep at night thinking of you
i'm laying awake at night thinking of you too
and wondering if you'll ever return the favor.