Friday, December 18, 2009

it might have been quicker
it might have been easier.

it might have been paved with gold
through arches of sunlight.

it might have taken you home
or granted you freedom.

but how do you know?

you've begun this path.
follow it until there's nothing more to follow.

when i'm jealous
i realize how small i am

if this is a war
then let me lose
i need to be destroyed
to be rebuilt.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

while you were reading,
you missed your chance to write.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

it may seem strange to think
but there is a person
inside of everyone.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

you would not believe
all the things that you have seen
but have never cared
to realize

Saturday, December 5, 2009

are we in a storybook somewhere,
or are we our own story?

caus i'd prefer the latter.

Friday, December 4, 2009

it will happen
before you've realized what has happened

Thursday, December 3, 2009

the pacific is screaming in my ears
as if it didn't exist
until it divided us.

but maybe someday
the wind will carry your breaths,
and the ocean will carry my tears,

for thousands of miles,
through hundreds of years,

until they meet to form a cloud
smaller than anyone can see,
and float on to eternity.

yes, you should

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

i miss you...

...when you're here

Sunday, November 29, 2009

when i seem fine,
i'm not.

when i hug you goodbye,
i'm dying inside.

when i call you
i'm wishing i were there.

when i say i'm sleeping
i'm really crying myself to sleep.

i just don't have the guts to tell you.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

not everything
needs a deadline

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

and i've never been so sure of something
or so ashamed that i'm hesitating.

i've never been so eager
or so reclusive.

because i know i will never have enough heart
to give to you

to deserve yours.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

the most important things
will only be said once

Monday, November 16, 2009

i met a man once. his feet were in the sky,
and he walked where no one did.

but his heart and mind were grounded strong,
his feelings and thoughts were hid.

he kept like this for quite some time
but he got tired fast.

his feet fell down, his head flipped up
and his heart just could not last.

For this, I say fly.
Be free, my friends.
Lift your feet from off the ground.

And when your feet can't take you away,
keep your mind held skyward bound.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

how quickly comes insanity
how loudly do we land

be loud
or not at all

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

i'd rather be your convenience
than your regret

Monday, November 9, 2009

our screens have convinced us
that the cold wind and the pain of fever
are all suffering, all unnatural.

yea, well maybe.

but is it more natural
to laugh at death?
to hide from the sun?
to keep love in our heads
rather than our hands?

Friday, November 6, 2009

do you love me?

I don't love you

Monday, November 2, 2009

the one time you call
will be the time i let it ring.

and the one minute you tell me i'm worth it
will be the minute i tell myself i'm not.

and the one second you decide that you can't live without me.
will be the second i decide that i can't live

because i've always been without you.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

run out and meet life
before it's too late.

it's been waiting just for you
and it won't wait forever.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

i am certain
that it is a dangerous thing
to be certain.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

sometimes...the exit is all you have

right now.

we're making progress.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

when the sunlight hits my back,
I like to think that all its rays
are giving me a little push.

Friday, October 23, 2009

all i need
is for you to show me
that there is a heart that's still alive
in this place.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

even though you're hundreds of miles away,
and you have countless closer friends,
you're the closest thing to a best friend that I have.

thank you.

touch, barely, with the tips of your fingers
and you'll push away what you meant to keep.

grasp, withholding no speck of fear within your body
and you will always catch what you're reaching for.

just be ready to fall.

Friday, October 16, 2009

you can't stop the bullets
unless you stop firing, yourself.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

strawberry poppyseeds
lemon-grit toes
shoe-shine sasparilla
you and me.

the most different of things
can sometimes sound great together.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

you can either be a hero or a lover
divide yourself for many or give yourself wholly to one.

you cannot give a part of yourself to someone who gives freely of their whole self.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

The Pheonix Dies Last

if this fire inside consumes me
and i become nothing more than ashes
then i will be honored
to feed the earth.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

this is life

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


When I look through these pictures
I wish I knew how you felt in these moments.

Were you happy?
Was that smile real?
Were you sad, for some reason you never told anyone?
What were you thinking about?

I wish I could ask you.
I wish it weren't strange of me to ask such a thing.
I wish we could be closer
than the closest we'll ever get.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

you aren't my crutch
you were never my crutch

i was just looking for something to lean on
while you were pulling me down

I should have known better
than to lean on the one who was pulling me.

Monday, September 21, 2009

you are beautiful
like white streaks of silver ash that touch wings and fly.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

set them free
let them shine
they shall all be stars
in your mind's sky.

Friday, September 18, 2009

月のうしお / The Moon's Tide





A long time ago,
I was lonely
I cried so much.

The moon's tide,
on a quiet night,
brought you.

you were the only one who gave me happiness
but, now...

as quick as you came,
you left.
I will never forget.

-Original Japanese Lyrics by Kisara Onuma and me

Thursday, September 17, 2009

you can't live with an arrow in your heart forever.
you must tear it out.

it's going to be painful.
there's no anesthesia for removing love.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

if you were in my arms again,
the rain would still be falling.
you aren't my sunshine anymore.

Loving you
is the last thing i'll ever be certain of.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I miss you
more than I've ever thought I could miss someone.

Where Did My Heart Go?

when you said those things,
i thought you were talking about me

then i realized
they were about him

my heart should have broken
but it didn't

there was nothing left to break

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Why Do You Feel This Way?

my heart is not a train.
my heart is a pedestrian.

It chooses where it will go
and it won't wait for traffic.

Friday, September 11, 2009

What's Behind That Smile Of Yours?

"i miss you...
more than it seems."

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Is Love Dead?

love is alive
all you need to do
is forget "i"
and flip the "al"
to begin with "la"

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Why Won't You Forgive Me?

i promise you
one day
i'll say those words.

but not today.
not for a while.

What is Maturity Then?

maturity isn't about becoming emotionless.
it's about discovering what deserves your heart's time
and what does not.

it isn't about becoming some invincible superhuman.
it's about accepting that some things
require you to be vulnerable.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Why Don't You Find Someone Else?

because I know what my heart says
and it tells me
to die every night
and bear every day
until you are ready
to use your heart again.

and there's an ounce of hope in here
that believes the day you're ready
will be the day
I can live through the night
and know in the morning
that love is still alive.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Why Are You Getting So Angry?

well, do you ever wonder
what it's like to be
just a scribble of pen
in someone's calendar?

that's how you make me feel.

Friday, August 28, 2009

Why Do You Look Away When I Look At You?

if i see your eyes
staring at mine,
i'm afraid we won't feel the same
that you won't long for me
the same way i long for you

so i keep safe:
i stop before I fall
the way I did before.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

How Do I Cope With What They Did To Me?

when you feel like you're in hell,
you try anything and everything
to find water.

just remember,
the devil's water
will make you sick.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

How Do I Become A Hero?

when your words
have become magic spells
that mend broken hearts,

when your fingers
have become magic wands
that comfort those in pain,

when you can fly
so you can reach
the furthest and weakest hands,

when you become invisible
so your pride
can never be fed,

then you have become a hero.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Why Is The World So Boring?

when's the last time
you looked straight up
at the sky?

when's the last time
you stopped your life
and stood in awe of it all?

when's the last time
you quit talking
and actually listened?

when's the last time
you gave the world
a chance?

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Why Am I Different?

you've broken free,
chosen not to follow,
but to lead.

be vigilant
for others will follow you
into unwinnable battles.

they will be your very strength
and you, theirs.

but winning isn't so important
when having people who believe in you
is the truest victory of all.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

I've Messed Things Up. Now What?

nothing in this world
has only one window of opportunity.

Friday, August 14, 2009

What Difference Do My Decisions Make To The People Around Me?

our lives are not our own.

for every decision we make
there are people we affect.

some wonder,
"should i do that too?"

others will laugh with you
or cry with you
depending on the
weight of your decisions
and which direction
that weight is headed.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Is There Anyone I Can Hold On To?

no matter what or who
or how or why
there will always be someone
right there with you
making sure you don't drown.
even in these high waters.

all you have to do
is call out for help.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Am I Free? Have I Finally Escaped?

sometimes when you escape
the sky you see is really
the same bars in disguise.

Friday, August 7, 2009

How Long Can We Keep This Fire In Our Hearts?

for as long as the fire
is given
from candle
to candle,
the fire will never burn out.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

How do I get out of here?

when something blocks the way
to living your life
you must break free from it
and never once think
that you made the wrong choice.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Why Doesn't Anyone Care About the Earth?

because we can't let go.

we will one day
when the tables turn
and the earth forces us
to let go of everything
that we think is necessary.

be patient.
it will be soon.

Why Can't I Let Go?

you have to move on from the things that are bad for you
even if it means letting the good go with them.

then again, some things are never meant to leave.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Why Do I Want Things That I Shouldn't Want?

because you're allowing your mind to guide you
and neglecting all that is within your heart.

you may choose this,
but someday your heart will rebel against you
or die trying.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

How Can My Heart Live Again?

in every moment,
in every chance you get,
let it breathe,
let it speak.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Do I Have A Heart?

one day your heart will wake up and start speaking to you
with words you've never heard before.
but somehow, you'll understand it all perfectly
and wish you'd have heard them sooner.

Why Do I Cry All The Time?

because your body knows something you don't.
listen closer, and you'll hear what's really crying inside of you.

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Where Do I Go From Here?

follow the path
that your feet make for you.

use the compass
that is your heart.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Where Am I?

you're somewhere
between yesterday and tommorrow.

so paint the walls of today
so that someone might trace your steps
and find you
wherever tommorrow is.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Why Are We Here?

because every day we have,
we make a decision
that today is worth it.
and it is so worth it.